one amazing feeling, as captured by a few wandering thoughts.

you can listen to this while you read…if you like:   the point of it all– anthony hamilton
…it fits my groove/mood/thoughts/cravings/o.c.d. today better than other songs i’ve heard recently.

…it’s rainy outside, yet warm…i’m here alone, but not lonely…longing, though not sad…totally humbled, yet full of love–to the point of almost bursting–so full that i’m not quite sure what i’m supposed to do when i find myself so…aware…of it all…screaming, jumping up and down, tears, or hysterical laughter would all be reasonable reactions, even to the most conservative of people…if they could feel it for even a second.
i’m trying to communicate something, without rambling on forever–because i could, you understand, NEVER run out of words to describe this high…even on low days. it’s just that i’m more sure than i’ve ever been in my life that it’s mutual and right..despite any opposition we may ever come to know of, which we’ll always ignore…focusing instead, on what’s been true from the start.
…i’m saying all this (rambling, despite myself) to get to my point…EYE LOVE EWE…so deeply that i hear you when you’re not speaking, feel you when you’re beyond my reach, and see you in every experience i have.
as far apart as we are…as rarely as we get to physically be together, i’m so grateful…for the opportunity to see the progress of what we’re building up from the foundation of love, respect, and honesty that we agreed upon not so long ago…for the understanding of how we had to live through our experiences from ‘before us’ so we can better appreciate our ‘after’…and how we’re equipped with the presence of mind to notice and give thanks for the differences…and the tools to express them all…and the passion between us for paying attention to every.little.thing…and the bravery to acknowledge who we are to each other……amazing when i think about it. (catching my breath now) that’s it…for now.
thanks again for being here…choosing me…loving me…affording me the motivation to expand/better who i am, how i see…my world in general…ok, i’m stopping now…again…i really could go on…because there’s always something good to say, even when things are hard…always a happy thought to share about–nevermind. enough…the point…you…i love…and i want to make you understand th–. (running away from my computer as fast as i can now, as it’s the only way i’ll stop)